I choose me!

I choose me 
I didn’t do this for a guy 

I didn’t do this because I’m lazy 

I didn’t do this for childish reasons 
I choose me 
I did this because you’re toxic 

I did this because my life was not my own 

I did this because I was not free 
I choose me 
I want to be free 

I want to live my life 

I want to make my own choices 

I want to fall and get up 

I want to fail and succeed 
I choose me 
On my own terms 
Me 

For 

Once 

Because 

I

Want 

To 

Live 
-B. 

10-12-17

Exception 

He was fire He had always been 

Just that 

So he thought 

A raging wild fire 

Filled with demons 

Filled with rage 

Bursting at any moment 
She was the ocean 

She could be calm 

And she could rage 

Like a wild storm 

She could be everything 

In between 
And he 

He loved all of her 

All her shades of blue 

All her storms 
And she 

She loved him 

Even when he was burning 

Burning brighter than the sun 
And together 

They created 

Within each other 

A balance 
For she longed 

She wished 

To show him 

That he was not just fire 

But something more beautiful 
And he 

He moved the heavens 

To show her 

That she was not 

Damned 
And maybe 

Just maybe 

They were 

Each other’s 

Exception… 
-B. 

10-9-17

Your heart 

Your heart Beats within you 

Even before you 

Beautiful you 

Take your first breath 
To you 

To you, it may feel fragile 

It may feel as if it has 

broken into a million little pieces 

A thousand times over 
But your heart 

It beats 

It beats strong 

Never resting 

From that moment 

Before you are here 

Before your first breath 

Until your very last breath 
Your heart 

Though it may feel 

As if it has been torn 

Every which way 

Is still beating 

Pumping life 

Into your veins 
Your heart 

Is yours 

Follow it

Always… 
-B. 

10-9-17

I’m not a child!

I’m not a child I’m 

28 
I’m not a child 

You 

don’t 

need 

to 

do 

this 

Not anymore 
I’m not a child 

Stop 

treating 

me 

like 

one 
I’m not a child 

Stop 

scolding

me 
I’m not a child 

Please 

Let 

Me 

Live 
I’m not a child 

Let 

Me 

Be

Free 
I’m not a child 

But 

I’ll

Always 

Be 

Your 

Child 
-B. 

10-2-17


Photo taken circa ‘93 

I did not ask… 

Why should I be Sorry 

Sorry for who I am 

Sorry for everything my life has made me 

Why? 
I did not ask for this 

Do you think 

In my right mind 

I wake up 

And tell myself 

Today, I want to suffer 

I want to have extreme moods 

Every 60 seconds

I want anger, that is unfounded 

I want to be afraid 

Of people leaving 

Of things that don’t make sense 

That I woke up 

As a child 

As a teen, in love for the first time 

As a 28 year old, meeting someone new 

And wanted them to rip away my dignity 

Rip away every piece of me 

Leave me with nothing but vile memories 

And pieces of me, shattered 
I did not 

Wake up 

And ask for any of it 

I did not 

Ask for this 
But

Hear me 

When I tell you 

This is my truth 

This is who I am 
Not all of me 

Because there is 

So much more 

Love 

Beauty 

Understanding 

Caring 

A world in this soul 

You could not even begin to fathom 

Because of what I did not ask for 
So no, 

I did not ask for this 

But 

This is part of me, now 
This is me, B. 

Take me or leave me. 

I’m done hiding… 
-B. 

10-17-17

Anger 

Anger Swells Like a raging storm 
Burning 

through me 

Raging fire 

In my veins 
I’m shaking 

Trembling 

With rage 
I have to let it out 

I don’t know how 
It tears 

Through 

Every 

Nerve ending 

Igniting them
Swirling 

Burning 

Let it out 

Before 

It 

Consumes 

Me 

Whole…
-B. 

10-2-17

I gotchu…

And just like thatI realized 

My own strength 
Not for myself 

But for you 
That if you were ever in need 

I could pick you up 

That I had your back 
And that was the first time 

The first time

That I ever felt strong for someone 

For someone else’s darkness 
And in that 

I knew 

That 

This

Was

For 

Real…
-B. 

9-30-17