Doomed

Should I of stayed?

Would we have been okay then?

Look at us now

You don’t even see it

You didn’t see it

Two hellbent souls

Trying to love

But too broken to be

Now we’re here

Trying so hard to hold on

But I see what’s happening

The growing distance

This won’t last

This won’t work

This is doomed

It’s always been doomed

A Shakespearean tragedy…

-B. 6-9-18

Beautiful chaos

You’re dangerous

You’re the worst kind of amazing

You are a demon in disguise

I don’t want to let you go

I don’t know how

I can’t

You made me your fool

A doll for your rage

You tricked me

A sense of security

A false love

I am yours

I fall at your words

Hopeless

But how do I let you go,

When I still believe in you?

When I still believe there’s a heart in there

You’re my destruction

My fallen angel

My beautiful chaos.

-B. 6-7-18

The greatest story

This is hard

This is really hard

I’m not going to lie

You’re a stubborn grump

I’m an emotional ball of twine

You’re snarky and testy

I’m needy and damaged

You’re anger

I’m the emotional spectrum

You’re regimented

I’m all over the place

We’re two different souls

Intertwined in this place

Going through time

Finding our own way

But this is not easy

No one ever said it was

I don’t think anything great is easy

I guess that means…

We’re the greatest story ever told.

-B.

1-17-18

Calling me home

I grow small

Inwards

A storm wages inside

Tears roll down

I’m shaking

I need you…

To hold me, close

To take me in

Breathe life, your life

Into…me

Keep me… close

Keep me…safe

Whisper hope into me

Break these chains

This anchor

Pulling me down

You’re all I need

In this, empty world

You’re all I see

In this, raging storm

You’re voice

Is all I hear

Calling me

Home…

-B.

11-16-17

Tarnished

I hear the wind

Rustling through the trees

A warm spring day

The windows open

I can feel a breeze on my skin

Cool and warm

Out my window

All green

The sun is shining

But inside me

Is a darkness

An aching pain

That doesn’t relent

What once was beautiful

Is now tarnished with the darkness

I’m falling over the edge

this time I don’t think I’ll be pulled back

This time, I think it’s going to stick

-B. 6-12-18

Someone?…please!

Someone hear me scream

Please, I need you to hear me

Anyone, hear me

I’m so scared

As the darkness eats away at me

I don’t want to be here anymore

Someone find me

Help me

Get me out of here

Because I don’t think I’m going to make it

-B. 6-11-18

Break apart

I’m going to break

I’m not as strong as you think

I’m not the person you think

I am small

All alone

No one to talk to

I’m going to break

A million different ways

There won’t be putting me back together

Watch me fall apart

On the floor

You’ll find me

All my pieces

You won’t be able to put me back together

-B. 6-10-18